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The Red Badge of Courage
By Stephen Crane
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CHAPTER 22
When the woods again began to pour forth the
dark-hued masses of the enemy the youth felt serene self-confidence. He smiled
briefly when he saw men dodge and duck at the long screechings of shells that
were thrown in giant handfuls over them. He stood, erect and tranquil, watching
the attack begin against apart of the line that made a blue curve along the side
of an adjacent hill. His vision being unmolested by smoke from the rifles of his
companions, he had opportunities to see parts of the hard fight. It was a relief
to perceive at last from whence came some of these noises which had been roared
into his ears.
Off a short way he saw two
regiments fighting a little separate battle with two other regiments. It was in
a cleared space, wearing a set-apart look. They were blazing as if upon a wager,
giving and taking tremendous blows. The firings were incredibly fierce and
rapid. These intent regiments apparently were oblivious of all larger purposes
of war, and were slugging each other as if at a matched game.
In another direction he saw
a magnificent brigade going with the evident intention of driving the enemy from
a wood. They passed in out of sight and presently there was a most awe-inspiring
racket in the wood. The noise was unspeakable. Having stirred this prodigious
uproar, and, apparently, finding it too prodigious, the brigade, after a little
time, came marching airily out again with its fine formation in nowise
disturbed. There were no traces of speed in its movements. The brigade was
jaunty and seemed to point a proud thumb at the yelling wood.
On a slope to the left
there was a long row of guns, gruff and maddened, denouncing the enemy, who,
down through the woods, were forming for another attack in the pitiless monotony
of conflicts. The round red discharges from the guns made a crimson flare and a
high, thick smoke. Occasional glimpses could be caught of groups of the toiling
artillerymen. In the rear of this row of guns stood a house, calm and white,
amid bursting shells. A congregation of horses, tied to a long railing, were
tugging frenziedly at their bridles. Men were running hither and thither.
The detached battle between
the four regiments lasted for some time. There chanced to be no interference,
and they settled their dispute by themselves. They struck savagely and
powerfully at each other for a period of minutes, and then the lighter-hued
regiments faltered and drew back, leaving the dark-blue lines shouting. The
youth could see the two flags shaking with laughter amid the smoke remnants.
Presently there was a
stillness, pregnant with meaning. The blue lines shifted and changed a trifle
and stared expectantly at the silent woods and fields before them. The hush was
solemn and churchlike, save for a distant battery that, evidently unable to
remain quiet, sent a faint rolling thunder over the ground. It irritated, like
the noises of unimpressed boys. The men imagined that it would prevent their
perched ears from hearing the first words of the new battle.
Of a sudden the guns on the
slope roared out a message of warning. A spluttering sound had begun in the
woods. It swelled with amazing speed to a profound clamor that involved the
earth in noises. The splitting crashes swept along the lines until an
interminable roar was developed. To those in the midst of it it became a din
fitted to the universe. It was the whirring and thumping of gigantic machinery,
complications among the smaller stars. The youth's ears were filled cups. They
were incapable of hearing more.
On an incline over which a
road wound he saw wild and desperate rushes of men perpetually backward and
forward in riotous surges. These parts of the opposing armies were two long
waves that pitched upon each other madly at dictated points. To and fro they
swelled. Sometimes, one side by its yells and cheers would proclaim decisive
blows, but a moment later the other side would be all yells and cheers. Once the
youth saw a spray of light forms go in houndlike leaps toward the waving blue
lines. There was much howling, and presently it went away with a vast mouthful
of prisoners. Again, he saw a blue wave dash with such thunderous force against
a gray obstruction that it seemed to clear the earth of it and leave nothing but
trampled sod. And always in their swift and deadly rushes to and fro the men
screamed and yelled like maniacs.
Particular pieces of fence
or secure positions behind collections of trees were wrangled over, as gold
thrones or pearl bedsteads. There were desperate lunges at these chosen spots
seemingly every instant, and most of them were bandied like light toys between
the contending forces. The youth could not tell from the battle flags flying
like crimson foam in many directions which color of cloth was winning.
His emaciated regiment
bustled forth with undiminished fierceness when its time came. When assaulted
again by bullets, the men burst out in a barbaric cry of rage and pain. They
bent their heads in aims of intent hatred behind the projected hammers of their
guns. Their ramrods clanged loud with fury as their eager arms pounded the
cartridges into the rifle barrels. The front of the regiment was a smoke-wall
penetrated by the flashing points of yellow and red.
Wallowing in the fight,
they were in an astonishingly short time resmudged. They surpassed in stain and
dirt all their previous appearances. Moving to and fro with strained exertion,
jabbering all the while, they were, with their swaying bodies, black faces, and
glowing eyes, like strange and ugly fiends jigging heavily in the smoke.
The lieutenant, returning
from a tour after a bandage, produced from a hidden receptacle of his mind new
and portentous oaths suited to the emergency. Strings of expletives he swung
lashlike over the backs of his men, and it was evident that his previous efforts
had in nowise impaired his resources.
The youth, still the bearer
of the colors, did not feel his idleness. He was deeply absorbed as a spectator.
The crash and swing of the great drama made him lean forward, intent-eyed, his
face working in small contortions. Sometimes he prattled, words coming
unconsciously from him in grotesque exclamations. He did not know that he
breathed; that the flag hung silently over him, so absorbed was he.
A formidable line of the
enemy came within dangerous range. They could be seen plainly--tall, gaunt men
with excited faces running with long strides toward a wandering fence.
At sight of this danger the
men suddenly ceased their cursing monotone. There was an instant of strained
silence before they threw up their rifles and fired a plumping volley at the
foes. There had been no order given; the men, upon recognizing the menace, had
immediately let drive their flock of bullets without waiting for word of
command.
But the enemy were quick to
gain the protection of the wandering line of fence. They slid down behind it
with remarkable celerity, and from this position they began briskly to slice up
the blue men.
These latter braced their
energies for a great struggle. Often, white clinched teeth shone from the dusky
faces. Many heads surged to and fro, floating upon a pale sea of smoke. Those
behind the fence frequently shouted and yelped in taunts and gibelike cries, but
the regiment maintained a stressed silence. Perhaps, at this new assault the men
recalled the fact that they had been named mud diggers, and it made their
situation thrice bitter. They were breathlessly intent upon keeping the ground
and thrusting away the rejoicing body of the enemy. They fought swiftly and with
a despairing savageness denoted in their expressions.
The youth had resolved not
to budge whatever should happen. Some arrows of scorn that had buried themselves
in his heart had generated strange and unspeakable hatred. It was clear to him
that his final and absolute revenge was to be achieved by his dead body lying,
torn and gluttering, upon the field. This was to be a poignant retaliation upon
the officer who had said "mule drivers," and later "mud diggers," for in all the
wild graspings of his mind for a unit responsible for his sufferings and
commotions he always seized upon the man who had dubbed him wrongly. And it was
his idea, vaguely formulated, that his corpse would be for those eyes a great
and salt reproach.
The regiment bled
extravagantly. Grunting bundles of blue began to drop. The orderly sergeant of
the youth's company was shot through the cheeks. Its supports being injured, his
jaw hung afar down, disclosing in the wide cavern of his mouth a pulsing mass of
blood and teeth. And with it all he made attempts to cry out. In his endeavor
there was a dreadful earnestness, as if he conceived that one great shriek would
make him well.
The youth saw him presently
go rearward. His strength seemed in nowise impaired. He ran swiftly, casting
wild glances for succor.
Others fell down about the
feet of their companions. Some of the wounded crawled out and away, but many lay
still, their bodies twisted into impossible shapes.
The youth looked once for
his friend. He saw a vehement young man, powder-smeared and frowzled, whom he
knew to be him. The lieutenant, also, was unscathed in his position at the rear.
He had continued to curse, but it was now with the air of a man who was using
his last box of oaths.
For the fire of the
regiment had begun to wane and drip. The robust voice, that had come strangely
from the thin ranks, was growing rapidly weak.
CHAPTER 23
The colonel came running along the back of the
line. There were other officers following him. "We must charge'm!" they shouted.
"We must charge'm!" they cried with resentful voices, as if anticipating a
rebellion against this plan by the men.
The youth, upon hearing the
shouts, began to study the distance between him and the enemy. He made vague
calculations. He saw that to be firm soldiers they must go forward. It would be
death to stay in the present place, and with all the circumstances to go
backward would exalt too many others. Their hope was to push the galling foes
away from the fence.
He expected that his
companions, weary and stiffened, would have to be driven to this assault, but as
he turned toward them he perceived with a certain surprise that they were giving
quick and unqualified expressions of assent. There was an ominous, clanging
overture to the charge when the shafts of the bayonets rattled upon the rifle
barrels. At the yelled words of command the soldiers sprang forward in eager
leaps. There was new and unexpected force in the movement of the regiment. A
knowledge of its faded and jaded condition made the charge appear like a
paroxysm, a display of the strength that comes before a final feebleness. The
men scampered in insane fever of haste, racing as if to achieve a sudden success
before an exhilarating fluid should leave them. It was a blind and despairing
rush by the collection of men in dusty and tattered blue, over a green sward and
under a sapphire sky, toward a fence, dimly outlined in smoke, from behind which
sputtered the fierce rifles of enemies.
The youth kept the bright
colors to the front. He was waving his free arm in furious circles, the while
shrieking mad calls and appeals, urging on those that did not need to be urged,
for it seemed that the mob of blue men hurling themselves on the dangerous group
of rifles were again grown suddenly wild with an enthusiasm of unselfishness.
From the many firings starting toward them, it looked as if they would merely
succeed in making a great sprinkling of corpses on the grass between their
former position and the fence. But they were in a state of frenzy, perhaps
because of forgotten vanities, and it made an exhibition of sublime
recklessness. There was no obvious questioning, nor figurings, nor diagrams.
There was, apparently, no considered loopholes. It appeared that the swift wings
of their desires would have shattered against the iron gates of the impossible.
He himself felt the daring
spirit of a savage, religion-mad. He was capable of profound sacrifices, a
tremendous death. He had no time for dissections, but he knew that he thought of
the bullets only as things that could prevent him from reaching the place of his
endeavor. There were subtle flashings of joy within him that thus should be his
mind.
He strained all his
strength. His eyesight was shaken and dazzled by the tension of thought and
muscle. He did not see anything excepting the mist of smoke gashed by the little
knives of fire, but he knew that in it lay the aged fence of a vanished farmer
protecting the snuggled bodies of the gray men.
As he ran a thought of the
shock of contact gleamed in his mind. He expected a great concussion when the
two bodies of troops crashed together. This became a part of his wild battle
madness. He could feel the onward swing of the regiment about him and he
conceived of a thunderous, crushing blow that would prostrate the resistance and
spread consternation and amazement for miles. The flying regiment was going to
have a catapultian effect. This dream made him run faster among his comrades,
who were giving vent to hoarse and frantic cheers.
But presently he could see
that many of the men in gray did not intend to abide the blow. The smoke,
rolling, disclosed men who ran, their faces still turned. These grew to a crowd,
who retired stubbornly. Individuals wheeled frequently to send a bullet at the
blue wave.
But at one part of the line
there was a grim and obdurate group that made no movement. They were settled
firmly down behind posts and rails. A flag, ruffled and fierce, waved over them
and their rifles dinned fiercely.
The blue whirl of men got
very near, until it seemed that in truth there would be a close and frightful
scuffle. There was an expressed disdain in the opposition of the little group,
that changed the meaning of the cheers of the men in blue. They became yells of
wrath, directed, personal. The cries of the two parties were now in sound an
interchange of scathing insults.
They in blue showed their
teeth; their eyes shone all white. They launched themselves as at the throats of
those who stood resisting. The space between dwindled to an insignificant
distance.
The youth had centered the
gaze of his soul upon that other flag. Its possession would be high pride. It
would express bloody minglings, near blows. He had a gigantic hatred for those
who made great difficulties and complications. They caused it to be as a craved
treasure of mythology, hung amid tasks and contrivances of danger.
He plunged like a mad horse
at it. He was resolved it should not escape if wild blows and darings of blows
could seize it. His own emblem, quivering and aflare, was winging toward the
other. It seemed there would shortly be an encounter of strange beaks and claws,
as of eagles.
The swirling body of blue
men came to a sudden halt at close and disastrous range and roared a swift
volley. The group in gray was split and broken by this fire, but its riddled
body still fought. The men in blue yelled again and rushed in upon it.
The youth, in his leapings,
saw, as through a mist, a picture of four or five men stretched upon the ground
or writhing upon their knees with bowed heads as if they had been stricken by
bolts from the sky. Tottering among them was the rival color bearer, whom the
youth saw had been bitten vitally by the bullets of the last formidable volley.
He perceived this man fighting a last struggle, the struggle of one whose legs
are grasped by demons. It was a ghastly battle. Over his face was the bleach of
death, but set upon it was the dark and hard lines of desperate purpose. With
this terrible grin of resolution he hugged his precious flag to him and was
stumbling and staggering in his design to go the way that led to safety for it.
But his wounds always made
it seem that his feet were retarded, held, and he fought a grim fight, as with
invisible ghouls fastened greedily upon his limbs. Those in advance of the
scampering blue men, howling cheers, leaped at the fence. The despair of the
lost was in his eyes as he glanced back at them.
The youth's friend went
over the obstruction in a tumbling heap and sprang at the flag as a panther at
prey. He pulled at it and, wrenching it free, swung up its red brilliancy with a
mad cry of exultation even as the color bearer, gasping, lurched over in a final
throe and, stiffening convulsively, turned his dead face to the ground. There
was much blood upon the grass blades.
At the place of success
there began more wild clamorings of cheers. The men gesticulated and bellowed in
an ecstasy. When they spoke it was as if they considered their listener to be a
mile away. What hats and caps were left to them they often slung high in the
air.
At one part of the line
four men had been swooped upon, and they now sat as prisoners. Some blue men
were about them in an eager and curious circle. The soldiers had trapped strange
birds, and there was an examination. A flurry of fast questions was in the air.
One of the prisoners was
nursing a superficial wound in the foot. He cuddled it, baby-wise, but he looked
up from it often to curse with an astonishing utter abandon straight at the
noses of his captors. He consigned them to red regions; he called upon the
pestilential wrath of strange gods. And with it all he was singularly free from
recognition of the finer points of the conduct of prisoners of war. It was as if
a clumsy clod had trod upon his toe and he conceived it to be his privilege, his
duty, to use deep, resentful oaths.
Another, who was a boy in
years, took his plight with great calmness and apparent good nature. He
conversed with the men in blue, studying their faces with his bright and keen
eyes. They spoke of battles and conditions. There was an acute interest in all
their faces during this exchange of view points. It seemed a great satisfaction
to hear voices from where all had been darkness and speculation.
The third captive sat with
a morose countenance. He preserved a stoical and cold attitude. To all advances
he made one reply without variation, "Ah, go t' hell!"
The last of the four was
always silent and, for the most part, kept his face turned in unmolested
directions. From the views the youth received he seemed to be in a state of
absolute dejection. Shame was upon him, and with it profound regret that he was,
perhaps, no more to be counted in the ranks of his fellows. The youth could
detect no expression that would allow him to believe that the other was giving a
thought to his narrowed future, the pictured dungeons, perhaps, and starvations
and brutalities, liable to the imagination. All to be seen was shame for
captivity and regret for the right to antagonize.
After the men had
celebrated sufficiently they settled down behind the old rail fence, on the
opposite side to the one from which their foes had been driven. A few shot
perfunctorily at distant marks.
There was some long grass.
The youth nestled in it and rested, making a convenient rail support the flag.
His friend, jubilant and glorified, holding his treasure with vanity, came to
him there. They sat side by side and congratulated each other.
CHAPTER 24
The roarings that had stretched in a long line of
sound across the face of the forest began to grow intermittent and weaker. The
stentorian speeches of the artillery continued in some distant encounter, but
the crashes of the musketry had almost ceased. The youth and his friend of a
sudden looked up, feeling a deadened form of distress at the waning of these
noises, which had become a part of life. They could see changes going on among
the troops. There were marchings this way and that way. A battery wheeled
leisurely. On the crest of a small hill was the thick gleam of many departing
muskets.
The youth arose. "Well,
what now, I wonder?" he said. By his tone he seemed to be preparing to resent
some new monstrosity in the way of dins and smashes. He shaded his eyes with his
grimy hand and gazed over the field.
His friend also arose and
stared. "I bet we're goin' t' git along out of this an' back over th' river,"
said he.
"Well, I swan!" said the
youth.
They waited, watching.
Within a little while the regiment received orders to retrace its way. The men
got up grunting from the grass, regretting the soft repose. They jerked their
stiffened legs, and stretched their arms over their heads. One man swore as he
rubbed his eyes. They all groaned "O Lord!" They had as many objections to this
change as they would have had to a proposal for a new battle.
They trampled slowly back
over the field across which they had run in a mad scamper.
The regiment marched until
it had joined its fellows. The reformed brigade, in column, aimed through a wood
at the road. Directly they were in a mass of dust-covered troops, and were
trudging along in a way parallel to the enemy's lines as these had been defined
by the previous turmoil.
They passed within view of
a stolid white house, and saw in front of it groups of their comrades lying in
wait behind a neat breastwork. A row of guns were booming at a distant enemy.
Shells thrown in reply were raising clouds of dust and splinters. Horsemen
dashed along the line of intrenchments.
At this point of its march
the division curved away from the field and went winding off in the direction of
the river. When the significance of this movement had impressed itself upon the
youth he turned his head and looked over his shoulder toward the trampled and
debris-strewed ground. He breathed a breath of new satisfaction. He finally
nudged his friend. "Well, it's all over," he said to him.
His friend gazed backward.
"B'Gawd, it is," he assented. They mused.
For a time the youth was
obliged to reflect in a puzzled and uncertain way. His mind was undergoing a
subtle change. It took moments for it to cast off its battleful ways and resume
its accustomed course of thought. Gradually his brain emerged from the clogged
clouds, and at last he was enabled to more closely comprehend himself and
circumstance.
He understood then that the
existence of shot and countershot was in the past. He had dwelt in a land of
strange, squalling upheavals and had come forth. He had been where there was red
of blood and black of passion, and he was escaped. His first thoughts were given
to rejoicings at this fact.
Later he began to study his
deeds, his failures, and his achievements. Thus, fresh from scenes where many of
his usual machines of reflection had been idle, from where he had proceeded
sheeplike, he struggled to marshal all his acts.
At last they marched before
him clearly. From this present view point he was enabled to look upon them in
spectator fashion and criticise them with some correctness, for his new
condition had already defeated certain sympathies.
Regarding his procession of
memory he felt gleeful and unregretting, for in it his public deeds were paraded
in great and shining prominence. Those performances which had been witnessed by
his fellows marched now in wide purple and gold, having various deflections.
They went gayly with music. It was pleasure to watch these things. He spent
delightful minutes viewing the gilded images of memory.
He saw that he was good. He
recalled with a thrill of joy the respectful comments of his fellows upon his
conduct.
Nevertheless, the ghost of
his flight from the first engagement appeared to him and danced. There were
small shoutings in his brain about these matters. For a moment he blushed, and
the light of his soul flickered with shame.
A specter of reproach came
to him. There loomed the dogging memory of the tattered soldier--he who, gored
by bullets and faint of blood, had fretted concerning an imagined wound in
another; he who had loaned his last of strength and intellect for the tall
soldier; he who, blind with weariness and pain, had been deserted in the field.
For an instant a wretched
chill of sweat was upon him at the thought that he might be detected in the
thing. As he stood persistently before his vision, he gave vent to a cry of
sharp irritation and agony.
His friend turned. "What's
the matter, Henry?" he demanded. The youth's reply was an outburst of crimson
oaths.
As he marched along the
little branch-hung roadway among his prattling companions this vision of cruelty
brooded over him. It clung near him always and darkened his view of these deeds
in purple and gold. Whichever way his thoughts turned they were followed by the
somber phantom of the desertion in the fields. He looked stealthily at his
companions, feeling sure that they must discern in his face evidences of this
pursuit. But they were plodding in ragged array, discussing with quick tongues
the accomplishments of the late battle.
"Oh, if a man should come
up an' ask me, I'd say we got a dum good lickin'."
"Lickin'--in yer eye! We
ain't licked, sonny. We're goin' down here aways, swing aroun', an' come in
behint 'em."
"Oh, hush, with your comin'
in behint 'em. I've seen all 'a that I wanta. Don't tell me about comin' in
behint--"
"Bill Smithers, he ses he'd
rather been in ten hundred battles than been in that heluva hospital. He ses
they got shootin' in th' nighttime, an' shells dropped plum among 'em in th'
hospital. He ses sech hollerin' he never see."
"Hasbrouck? He's th' best
off'cer in this here reg'ment. He's a whale."
"Didn't I tell yeh we'd
come aroun' in behint 'em? Didn't I tell yeh so?
We--"
"Oh, shet yeh mouth!"
For a time this pursuing
recollection of the tattered man took all elation from the youth's veins. He saw
his vivid error, and he was afraid that it would stand before him all his life.
He took no share in the chatter of his comrades, nor did he look at them or know
them, save when he felt sudden suspicion that they were seeing his thoughts and
scrutinizing each detail of the scene with the tattered soldier.
Yet gradually he mustered
force to put the sin at a distance. And at last his eyes seemed to open to some
new ways. He found that he could look back upon the brass and bombast of his
earlier gospels and see them truly. He was gleeful when he discovered that he
now despised them.
With this conviction came a
store of assurance. He felt a quiet manhood, nonassertive but of sturdy and
strong blood. He knew that he would no more quail before his guides wherever
they should point. He had been to touch the great death, and found that, after
all, it was but the great death. He was a man.
So it came to pass that as
he trudged from the place of blood and wrath his soul changed. He came from hot
plowshares to prospects of clover tranquilly, and it was as if hot plowshares
were not. Scars faded as flowers.
It rained. The procession
of weary soldiers became a bedraggled train, despondent and muttering, marching
with churning effort in a trough of liquid brown mud under a low, wretched sky.
Yet the youth smiled, for he saw that the world was a world for him, though many
discovered it to be made of oaths and walking sticks. He had rid himself of the
red sickness of battle. The sultry nightmare was in the past. He had been an
animal blistered and sweating in the heat and pain of war. He turned now with a
lover's thirst to images of tranquil skies, fresh meadows, cool brooks--an
existence of soft and eternal peace.
Over the river a golden ray
of sun came through the hosts of leaden rain clouds.
THE END.
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