The Game
By Jack London
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Chapter Two
Genevieve and Joe were working-class aristocrats. In an environment made up
largely of sordidness and wretchedness they had kept themselves unsullied and
wholesome. Theirs was a self-respect, a regard for the niceties and clean things
of life, which had held them aloof from their kind. Friends did not come to them
easily; nor had either ever possessed a really intimate friend, a heart-
companion with whom to chum and have things in common. The social instinct was
strong in them, yet they had remained lonely because they could not satisfy that
instinct and at that same time satisfy their desire for cleanness and decency.
If ever
a girl of the working class had led the sheltered life, it was Genevieve. In the
midst of roughness and brutality, she had shunned all that was rough and brutal.
She saw but what she chose to see, and she chose always to see the best,
avoiding coarseness and uncouthness without effort, as a matter of instinct. To
begin with, she had been peculiarly unexposed. An only child, with an invalid
mother upon whom she attended, she had not joined in the street games and
frolics of the children of the neighbourhood. Her father, a mild-tempered,
narrow-chested, anaemic little clerk, domestic because of his inherent
disability to mix with men, had done his full share toward giving the home an
atmosphere of sweetness and tenderness.
An
orphan at twelve, Genevieve had gone straight from her father's funeral to live
with the Silversteins in their rooms above the candy store; and here, sheltered
by kindly aliens, she earned her keep and clothes by waiting on the shop. Being
Gentile, she was especially necessary to the Silversteins, who would not run the
business themselves when the day of their Sabbath came round.
And
here, in the uneventful little shop, six maturing years had slipped by. Her
acquaintances were few. She had elected to have no girl chum for the reason that
no satisfactory girl had appeared. Nor did she choose to walk with the young
fellows of the neighbourhood, as was the custom of girls from their fifteenth
year. "That stuck-up doll-face," was the way the girls of the neighbourhood
described her; and though she earned their enmity by her beauty and aloofness,
she none the less commanded their respect. "Peaches and cream," she was called
by the young men--though softly and amongst themselves, for they were afraid of
arousing the ire of the other girls, while they stood in awe of Genevieve, in a
dimly religious way, as a something mysteriously beautiful and unapproachable.
For she
was indeed beautiful. Springing from a long line of American descent, she was
one of those wonderful working-class blooms which occasionally appear, defying
all precedent of forebears and environment, apparently without cause or
explanation. She was a beauty in color, the blood spraying her white skin so
deliciously as to earn for her the apt description, "peaches and cream." She was
a beauty in the regularity of her features; and, if for no other reason, she was
a beauty in the mere delicacy of the lines on which she was moulded. Quiet,
low-voiced, stately, and dignified, she somehow had the knack of dress, and but
befitted her beauty and dignity with anything she put on. Withal, she was
sheerly feminine, tender and soft and clinging, with the smouldering passion of
the mate and the motherliness of the woman. But this side of her nature had lain
dormant through the years, waiting for the mate to appear.
Then
Joe came into Silverstein's shop one hot Saturday afternoon to cool himself with
ice-cream soda. She had not noticed his entrance, being busy with one other
customer, an urchin of six or seven who gravely analyzed his desires before the
show-case wherein truly generous and marvellous candy creations reposed under a
cardboard announcement, "Five for Five Cents."
She had
heard, "Ice-cream soda, please," and had herself asked, "What flavor?" without
seeing his face. For that matter, it was not a custom of hers to notice young
men. There was something about them she did not understand. The way they looked
at her made her uncomfortable, she knew not why; while there was an uncouthness
and roughness about them that did not please her. As yet, her imagination had
been untouched by man. The young fellows she had seen had held no lure for her,
had been without meaning to her. In short, had she been asked to give one reason
for the existence of men on the earth, she would have been nonplussed for a
reply.
As she
emptied the measure of ice-cream into the glass, her casual glance rested on
Joe's face, and she experienced on the instant a pleasant feeling of
satisfaction. The next instant his eyes were upon her face, her eyes had
dropped, and she was turning away toward the soda fountain. But at the fountain,
filling the glass, she was impelled to look at him again--but for no more than
an instant, for this time she found his eyes already upon her, waiting to meet
hers, while on his face was a frankness of interest that caused her quickly to
look away.
That
such pleasingness would reside for her in any man astonished her. "What a pretty
boy," she thought to herself, innocently and instinctively trying to ward off
the power to hold and draw her that lay behind the mere prettiness. "Besides, he
isn't pretty," she thought, as she placed the glass before him, received the
silver dime in payment, and for the third time looked into his eyes. Her
vocabulary was limited, and she knew little of the worth of words; but the
strong masculinity of his boy's face told her that the term was inappropriate.
"He
must be handsome, then," was her next thought, as she again dropped her eyes
before his. But all good-looking men were called handsome, and that term, too,
displeased her. But whatever it was, he was good to see, and she was irritably
aware of a desire to look at him again and again.
As for
Joe, he had never seen anything like this girl across the counter. While he was
wiser in natural philosophy than she, and could have given immediately the
reason for woman's existence on the earth, nevertheless woman had no part in his
cosmos. His imagination was as untouched by woman as the girl's was by man. But
his imagination was touched now, and the woman was Genevieve. He had never
dreamed a girl could be so beautiful, and he could not keep his eyes from her
face. Yet every time he looked at her, and her eyes met his, he felt painful
embarrassment, and would have looked away had not her eyes dropped so quickly.
But
when, at last, she slowly lifted her eyes and held their gaze steadily, it was
his own eyes that dropped, his own cheek that mantled red. She was much less
embarrassed than he, while she betrayed her embarrassment not at all. She was
aware of a flutter within, such as she had never known before, but in no way did
it disturb her outward serenity. Joe, on the contrary, was obviously awkward and
delightfully miserable.
Neither
knew love, and all that either was aware was an overwhelming desire to look at
the other. Both had been troubled and roused, and they were drawing together
with the sharpness and imperativeness of uniting elements. He toyed with his
spoon, and flushed his embarrassment over his soda, but lingered on; and she
spoke softly, dropped her eyes, and wove her witchery about him.
But he
could not linger forever over a glass of ice-cream soda, while he did not dare
ask for a second glass. So he left her to remain in the shop in a waking trance,
and went away himself down the street like a somnambulist. Genevieve dreamed
through the afternoon and knew that she was in love. Not so with Joe. He knew
only that he wanted to look at her again, to see her face. His thoughts did not
get beyond this, and besides, it was scarcely a thought, being more a dim and
inarticulate desire.
The
urge of this desire he could not escape. Day after day it worried him, and the
candy shop and the girl behind the counter continually obtruded themselves. He
fought off the desire. He was afraid and ashamed to go back to the candy shop.
He solaced his fear with, "I ain't a ladies' man." Not once, nor twice, but
scores of times, he muttered the thought to himself, but it did no good. And by
the middle of the week, in the evening, after work, he came into the shop. He
tried to come in carelessly and casually, but his whole carriage advertised the
strong effort of will that compelled his legs to carry his reluctant body
thither. Also, he was shy, and awkwarder than ever. Genevieve, on the contrary,
was serener than ever, though fluttering most alarmingly within. He was
incapable of speech, mumbled his order, looked anxiously at the clock,
despatched his ice-cream soda in tremendous haste, and was gone.
She was
ready to weep with vexation. Such meagre reward for four days' waiting, and
assuming all the time that she loved! He was a nice boy and all that, she knew,
but he needn't have been in so disgraceful a hurry. But Joe had not reached the
corner before he wanted to be back with her again. He just wanted to look at
her. He had no thought that it was love. Love? That was when young fellows and
girls walked out together. As for him--And then his desire took sharper shape,
and he discovered that that was the very thing he wanted her to do. He wanted to
see her, to look at her, and well could he do all this if she but walked out
with him. Then that was why the young fellows and girls walked out together, he
mused, as the week-end drew near. He had remotely considered this walking out to
be a mere form or observance preliminary to matrimony. Now he saw the deeper
wisdom in it, wanted it himself, and concluded therefrom that he was in love.
Both
were now of the same mind, and there could be but the one ending; and it was the
mild nine days' wonder of Genevieve's neighborhood when she and Joe walked out
together.
Both
were blessed with an avarice of speech, and because of it their courtship was a
long one. As he expressed himself in action, she expressed herself in repose and
control, and by the love-light in her eyes--though this latter she would have
suppressed in all maiden modesty had she been conscious of the speech her heart
printed so plainly there. "Dear" and "darling" were too terribly intimate for
them to achieve quickly; and, unlike most mating couples, they did not overwork
the love-words. For a long time they were content to walk together in the
evenings, or to sit side by side on a bench in the park, neither uttering a word
for an hour at a time, merely gazing into each other's eyes, too faintly
luminous in the starshine to be a cause for self-consciousness and
embarrassment.
He was
as chivalrous and delicate in his attention as any knight to his lady. When they
walked along the street, he was careful to be on the outside,--somewhere he had
heard that this was the proper thing to do,--and when a crossing to the opposite
side of the street put him on the inside, he swiftly side-stepped behind her to
gain the outside again. He carried her parcels for her, and once, when rain
threatened, her umbrella. He had never heard of the custom of sending flowers to
one's lady-love, so he sent Genevieve fruit instead. There was utility in fruit.
It was good to eat. Flowers never entered his mind, until, one day, he noticed a
pale rose in her hair. It drew his gaze again and again. It was HER hair,
therefore the presence of the flower interested him. Again, it interested him
because SHE had chosen to put it there. For these reasons he was led to observe
the rose more closely. He discovered that the effect in itself was beautiful,
and it fascinated him. His ingenuous delight in it was a delight to her, and a
new and mutual love-thrill was theirs--because of a flower. Straightway he
became a lover of flowers. Also, he became an inventor in gallantry. He sent her
a bunch of violets. The idea was his own. He had never heard of a man sending
flowers to a woman. Flowers were used for decorative purposes, also for
funerals. He sent Genevieve flowers nearly every day, and so far as he was
concerned the idea was original, as positive an invention as ever arose in the
mind of man.
He was
tremulous in his devotion to her--as tremulous as was she in her reception of
him. She was all that was pure and good, a holy of holies not lightly to be
profaned even by what might possibly be the too ardent reverence of a devotee.
She was a being wholly different from any he had ever known. She was not as
other girls. It never entered his head that she was of the same clay as his own
sisters, or anybody's sister. She was more than mere girl, than mere woman. She
was--well, she was Genevieve, a being of a class by herself, nothing less than a
miracle of creation.
And for
her, in turn, there was in him but little less of illusion. Her judgment of him
in minor things might be critical (while his judgment of her was sheer worship,
and had in it nothing critical at all); but in her judgment of him as a whole
she forgot the sum of the parts, and knew him only as a creature of wonder, who
gave meaning to life, and for whom she could die as willingly as she could live.
She often beguiled her waking dreams of him with fancied situations, wherein,
dying for him, she at last adequately expressed the love she felt for him, and
which, living, she knew she could never fully express.
Their
love was all fire and dew. The physical scarcely entered into it, for such
seemed profanation. The ultimate physical facts of their relation were something
which they never considered. Yet the immediate physical facts they knew, the
immediate yearnings and raptures of the flesh--the touch of finger tips on hand
or arm, the momentary pressure of a hand-clasp, the rare lip-caress of a kiss,
the tingling thrill of her hair upon his cheek, of her hand lightly thrusting
back the locks from above his eyes. All this they knew, but also, and they knew
not why, there seemed a hint of sin about these caresses and sweet bodily
contacts.
There
were times when she felt impelled to throw her arms around him in a very
abandonment of love, but always some sanctity restrained her. At such moments
she was distinctly and unpleasantly aware of some unguessed sin that lurked
within her. It was wrong, undoubtedly wrong, that she should wish to caress her
lover in so unbecoming a fashion. No self-respecting girl could dream of doing
such a thing. It was unwomanly. Besides, if she had done it, what would he have
thought of it? And while she contemplated so horrible a catastrophe, she seemed
to shrivel and wilt in a furnace of secret shame.
Nor did
Joe escape the prick of curious desires, chiefest among which, perhaps, was the
desire to hurt Genevieve. When, after long and tortuous degrees, he had achieved
the bliss of putting his arm round her waist, he felt spasmodic impulses to make
the embrace crushing, till she should cry out with the hurt. It was not his
nature to wish to hurt any living thing. Even in the ring, to hurt was never the
intention of any blow he struck. In such case he played the Game, and the goal
of the Game was to down an antagonist and keep that antagonist down for a space
of ten seconds. So he never struck merely to hurt; the hurt was incidental to
the end, and the end was quite another matter. And yet here, with this girl he
loved, came the desire to hurt. Why, when with thumb and forefinger he had
ringed her wrist, he should desire to contract that ring till it crushed, was
beyond him. He could not understand, and felt that he was discovering depths of
brutality in his nature of which he had never dreamed.
Once,
on parting, he threw his arms around her and swiftly drew her against him. Her
gasping cry of surprise and pain brought him to his senses and left him there
very much embarrassed and still trembling with a vague and nameless delight. And
she, too, was trembling. In the hurt itself, which was the essence of the
vigorous embrace, she had found delight; and again she knew sin, though she knew
not its nature nor why it should be sin.
Came
the day, very early in their walking out, when Silverstein chanced upon Joe in
his store and stared at him with saucer-eyes. Came likewise the scene, after Joe
had departed, when the maternal feelings of Mrs. Silverstein found vent in a
diatribe against all prize-fighters and against Joe Fleming in particular.
Vainly had Silverstein striven to stay the spouse's wrath. There was need for
her wrath. All the maternal feelings were hers but none of the maternal rights.
Genevieve was aware only of the diatribe; she knew a flood of abuse was pouring
from the lips of the Jewess, but she was too stunned to hear the details of the
abuse. Joe, her Joe, was Joe Fleming the prize-fighter. It was abhorrent,
impossible, too grotesque to be believable. Her clear-eyed, girl-cheeked Joe
might be anything but a prize-fighter. She had never seen one, but he in no way
resembled her conception of what a prize-fighter must be--the human brute with
tiger eyes and a streak for a forehead. Of course she had heard of Joe
Fleming--who in West Oakland had not?--but that there should be anything more
than a coincidence of names had never crossed her mind.
She
came out of her daze to hear Mrs. Silverstein's hysterical sneer, "keepin'
company vit a bruiser." Next, Silverstein and his wife fell to differing on
"noted" and "notorious" as applicable to her lover.
"But he
iss a good boy," Silverstein was contending. "He make der money, an' he safe der
money."
"You
tell me dat!" Mrs. Silverstein screamed. "Vat you know? You know too much. You
spend good money on der prize-fighters. How you know? Tell me dat! How you
know?"
"I know
vat I know," Silverstein held on sturdily--a thing Genevieve had never before
seen him do when his wife was in her tantrums. "His fader die, he go to work in
Hansen's sail-loft. He haf six brudders an' sisters younger as he iss. He iss
der liddle fader. He vork hard, all der time. He buy der pread an' der meat, an'
pay der rent. On Saturday night he bring home ten dollar. Den Hansen gif him
twelve dollar--vat he do? He iss der liddle fader, he bring it home to der
mudder. He vork all der time, he get twenty dollar-- vat he do? He bring it
home. Der liddle brudders an' sisters go to school, vear good clothes, haf
better pread an' meat; der mudder lif fat, dere iss joy in der eye, an' she iss
proud of her good boy Joe.
"But he
haf der beautiful body--ach, Gott, der beautiful body!-- stronger as der ox,
k-vicker as der tiger-cat, der head cooler as der ice-box, der eyes vat see
eferytings, k-vick, just like dat. He put on der gloves vit der boys at Hansen's
loft, he put on der gloves vit de boys at der varehouse. He go before der club;
he knock out der Spider, k-vick, one punch, just like dat, der first time. Der
purse iss five dollar--vat he do? He bring it home to der mudder.
"He go
many times before der clubs; he get many purses--ten dollar, fifty dollar, one
hundred dollar. Vat he do? Tell me dat! Quit der job at Hansen's? Haf der good
time vit der boys? No, no; he iss der good boy. He vork efery day. He fight at
night before der clubs. He say, 'Vat for I pay der rent, Silverstein?'--to me,
Silverstein, he say dat. Nefer mind vat I say, but he buy der good house for der
mudder. All der time he vork at Hansen's and fight before der clubs to pay for
der house. He buy der piano for der sisters, der carpets, der pictures on der
vall. An' he iss all der time straight. He bet on himself--dat iss der good
sign. Ven der man bets on himself dat is der time you bet too--"
Here
Mrs. Silverstein groaned her horror of gambling, and her husband, aware that his
eloquence had betrayed him, collapsed into voluble assurances that he was ahead
of the game. "An' all because of Joe Fleming," he concluded. "I back him efery
time to vin."
But
Genevieve and Joe were preeminently mated, and nothing, not even this terrible
discovery, could keep them apart. In vain Genevieve tried to steel herself
against him; but she fought herself, not him. To her surprise she discovered a
thousand excuses for him, found him lovable as ever; and she entered into his
life to be his destiny, and to control him after the way of women. She saw his
future and hers through glowing vistas of reform, and her first great deed was
when she wrung from him his promise to cease fighting.
And he,
after the way of men, pursuing the dream of love and striving for possession of
the precious and deathless object of desire, had yielded. And yet, in the very
moment of promising her, he knew vaguely, deep down, that he could never abandon
the Game; that somewhere, sometime, in the future, he must go back to it. And he
had had a swift vision of his mother and brothers and sisters, their
multitudinous wants, the house with its painting and repairing, its street
assessments and taxes, and of the coming of children to him and Genevieve, and
of his own daily wage in the sail-making loft. But the next moment the vision
was dismissed, as such warnings are always dismissed, and he saw before him only
Genevieve, and he knew only his hunger for her and the call of his being to her;
and he accepted calmly her calm assumption of his life and actions.
He was
twenty, she was eighteen, boy and girl, the pair of them, and made for progeny,
healthy and normal, with steady blood pounding through their bodies; and
wherever they went together, even on Sunday outings across the bay amongst
people who did not know him, eyes were continually drawn to them. He matched her
girl's beauty with his boy's beauty, her grace with his strength, her delicacy
of line and fibre with the harsher vigor and muscle of the male. Frank-faced,
fresh-colored, almost ingenuous in expression, eyes blue and wide apart, he drew
and held the gaze of more than one woman far above him in the social scale. Of
such glances and dim maternal promptings he was quite unconscious, though
Genevieve was quick to see and understand; and she knew each time the pang of a
fierce joy in that he was hers and that she held him in the hollow of her hand.
He did see, however, and rather resented, the men's glances drawn by her. These,
too, she saw and understood as he did not dream of understanding.
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